Sooo...... Your life isn't a "perfect, bright-shining example," in the words of Oswald Chambers.
In case you need a reminder,
no one's life is a "perfect, bright-shining example."
We've all messed up, time after time after time.
That's why God's grace is so important!
Make a conscious decision:
Write stories that celebrate the mercy
and grace and kindness
God has given you!